its been 2 weeks and i'm still hooked on "Welcome to the Jungle" by Guns ' N Roses..jus listen to slash cos he's the BAND itself...singing can be better tho

been pondering on many issuses lately since i have alota time especially during travelling.the Lack of school make me want to exercise my brain and i think of all those questions that give you a terrible headache trying to think of it like...

1 ) is there an end to the universe? cos if there IS an End there will definately be something behind that end right and if theres NOT an end then how BIG isit?
2 ) when we die we live FOREVER with God, with no end to it....in life we always look forward to the end. happy times or not we're always lookin at the end...unhappy times we look, and say " i hope this ends soon" and happy times we go " oh purlease dunt let it end!!!" but in heaven we will live forever, something that we cannot realli comprehend cos theres no end to it..
3 ) why does lightning travel in zig-zag and if it goes in a straight line would it be faster than this zig-zagged one?

*OUCH* ok my head is hurting already
still loads more questions that i think i should not share here in cyberspace :P

its only when i start workin that i realise...time is really important!!! my dad bought me a few PS3 games that i've yet to play :( cos i rarely have the time to play once i'm home... but workin is kinda fun and cool especially with cool and er interesting collegues and fun stuff :D

i'm fatter now at 72 kg haha

as of 24th jan 2008 jason is still trying to find logic in the illogical and trying to make head out of tail.
"Jason is listening to "welcome to the jungle" on utube" u gotta lovethat song
returned from Wendy's cos it was Rob's farewell party but din really do much anyway hahaha jus played ONE round of majhiong hahah i miss my home
today God has really provided for me...one thing i realise is that people always say that "believe in God and have faith that He will provide"... believing is the simple part..but its the faith part that really matters to God...today i was so at ease that i jus started tearing for no reason...for the sake of peace...jus so awesome. sometimes people pray and dun have faith, they "hope" for something to happen.and when they dun get it they go " see i pray and You din help me at all...THANKS"......woeful example of what is actually to be done...
faith is something that cannot be bought but only can be gained thru trials and tests...like faith in a relationship...building up faith in God is really something that gives me a reason to SMILE! all the time...people ask why am i so happy all the time! haha its not that i'm happy happy but more of i know and have faith that no matter what shi* happens God always make everything better
so my final word is...all ye of little faith go forth and grow in God!!!!! :P
IT WORKED FOR ME! HAHAHA THANK YOU FATHER :D

operation cameleon was a success...at least i think it was
listening to welcome to the jungle...quirky little song that gets u kinda perked up haha
work is super interesting and interesting so far...get alota funny people around...

thurs 24th jan 2008 gathering at wen's house for Rob's farewell party...

chinese new year is coming and i hav not bought any clothes.... mayb i should go out in a pretty pink suit this time round...love the one i saw at imm giant.:D no i'm not gay.

really tired so kinda blogging rubbish at the moment. it gadgets to do tmr :(

22nd Jan 2008

jus finished work...enjoying it i suppose. tomorrow we're making honey water!! oh wells.
working never seems so fun and exciting! mayb its because its the first time i'm workin so yeah i feel totally excited about going to work everyday!

i guess i'd have to take a break soon i guess...poor Xuan everyday nobody pei her so yeah i need to spend some time with my most beloved and yeah take a rest...haha somehow this distance makes the heart grow fonder...i hope:D

i think i'm growing into a man now cos i'm really moody these few days...women hav pms so i think its natural for guys to be like moody and upset or just feel down...haha i feel like a matured man already.. ok kinda random.

facing a few probs still and yeah i hav been praying about it...really brings me closer to God...stil trying to bring friends so people remember me in prayer! only He noes whats instore for me so yeah jus remember me k:D

dun worry i'm not madly happy right now...jus suffering from shock and confusement...cant wait to drink honey water :P

i cant sleep and i just dont get it.
the alter personality is something that is highly bendable yes brittle. it can take heavy stretching once or twice or mayb 15 times but people gotta understand that it never really returns back to the same. its like a drop of water that never dissolves...diluting yet porating and adheasive.
its difficult to move from this point of view because of all the complications of the past and yet it really pains to do so
the window of oppertunity is indeed very short-circuited and re-wired
"wroong wrooong" goes the bell
rathered be expired that pre-pired

15th dec 2008

ok i have been working at School Of The Arts ( SOTA ) for a very long time since the start of the school holidays.. work from 8 to 6 everyday so actually i dun hav time to blog everyday...
its a very fun and challenging job....mine is to videotape their programme and edit and burn into disc and in pm i will be part of school logistics placing signs like " please flush"

its weird when u wake up so early in the morning and no need to go to school..students at sota are.....well....amazing...just so bloddy talented some of them.well its definately a place to go develop ur talents cos i find the teachers super engaging and approachable....as legendary as e teachers from PJC..and the thing is, all teachers there are so power in their own forms of art and during greeting sessions is less of " good morning mr.... or mrs.... but more of dr... and dr....LOL.

great school...pity i was born 6 years too early tho haha i intend to get their school uniform and pe teeshirt, really arty. hahaha

whichever thing can we hav the best of both worlds? its either less flour or more walkings...its like that. the window of oppertunities have to be developed and more lobbed to realise that! please process and remember whatever it is, nobody would want the pelvis of the chicken...and we always choose the lions share.pls....develop it.

31 dec 2007
" The first final lookback "

2007 has really been a surprise for me culturally , physically and spiritually

i had a new family , they were called 06s05, a place where misfits fitted in perfectly like a jigsaw ( i'm the only misfit actualy, i am everywhere i go ) and school was the biggest challenge esp the Alevels.the parting letters i gave to my classmates were the ones that i'll keep inside my memory forever.....thanks for all those mindless fun :) i kinda shy dun wana say too many thankyou speaches to ppl lah..i'm a MAN! :P but my thank you speaches are inside the small popiah papers i gave u all :)

God has certainly been merciful in 2007, mind u He was always merciful....2007 marked a terribly painful ordeal and trial apart from the Alevel saga. i sinned greatly like nobody would ever imagine in their wildest dreams and became a marked man...yet He loved me, and forgave me...all the countless times i spent at the side of the pillar hiding pouring out my heart to him...my only testimony is ; He heard, He cared , He provided. Thank you God. this year marked a year of spiritual growth in my as i experience a roller coaster of a relationship with God and yet still having God love me to the core by always providing a way when there seems to be a dead end. i have let him down repeatedly and he must be as hurt as a father whose son repeatedly runs foul of the law deliberately. yet he embraces me every time i run back to him fully aware that i will run foul of his law again. this year to come i will be obedient and pleasing in Gods eyes abit more and really GROW UP!

as a son i think i have failed too. communicating with parents were never my forte. although i'm making a point to talk to my parents now, it jus seems weird telling parents ur problems, as though they wont understand u..but i realise that they DO understand u....i'm slowly getting round this prob i guess, so its not really a prob

worse still this year i haven been a good bf either...the harder i try to become a good bf i realise that i'm actually becoming more crap than "clap"...i have really failed Xuan. no point trying to tel me i'm good...in trying i have tried too hard and in loving i have been like an over-zealous hound dog...i have enough..beeing good is no longer enough...i'll be the best bf EVER and be a rational and logical one...not like the crackhead i use to be..all is not bleak..when i open my eyes tomorrow...i will wake up knowing that the love of the Lord changes me...He first loved me and He gave me love in the form of Xuan and i am largely greatful :) i cannot wait to sleep

i am actually trying to bring friends to know Christ..the one that i noe and the one that makes me smile 24-7 even when i'm getting sh*t from people....i want to go " this is HE , the one that is my source of laughing even in death for he will raise me! :) " i want to bring people to noe God especially those who are upset, for nobody can comfort u as much as God can.so i really hope the people will pray for my like i asked to and let me start bringing people to know him.. to know the true source of happyness...i am a great testimony to how much smiles God can bring to ur life....i dont smile for no reason and i am a very bad tempered and impatient guy...but nobody has ever seen me as such and i really give praise to God for mellowing me down so much :)

i just wan people to pray for those we are trying to reach out to...this is not a recruitment drive , but a reconciliation of the people and our father from heaven. i cant wait for the new year.... I NEED A JOB