31 dec 2007
" The first final lookback "

2007 has really been a surprise for me culturally , physically and spiritually

i had a new family , they were called 06s05, a place where misfits fitted in perfectly like a jigsaw ( i'm the only misfit actualy, i am everywhere i go ) and school was the biggest challenge esp the Alevels.the parting letters i gave to my classmates were the ones that i'll keep inside my memory forever.....thanks for all those mindless fun :) i kinda shy dun wana say too many thankyou speaches to ppl lah..i'm a MAN! :P but my thank you speaches are inside the small popiah papers i gave u all :)

God has certainly been merciful in 2007, mind u He was always merciful....2007 marked a terribly painful ordeal and trial apart from the Alevel saga. i sinned greatly like nobody would ever imagine in their wildest dreams and became a marked man...yet He loved me, and forgave me...all the countless times i spent at the side of the pillar hiding pouring out my heart to him...my only testimony is ; He heard, He cared , He provided. Thank you God. this year marked a year of spiritual growth in my as i experience a roller coaster of a relationship with God and yet still having God love me to the core by always providing a way when there seems to be a dead end. i have let him down repeatedly and he must be as hurt as a father whose son repeatedly runs foul of the law deliberately. yet he embraces me every time i run back to him fully aware that i will run foul of his law again. this year to come i will be obedient and pleasing in Gods eyes abit more and really GROW UP!

as a son i think i have failed too. communicating with parents were never my forte. although i'm making a point to talk to my parents now, it jus seems weird telling parents ur problems, as though they wont understand u..but i realise that they DO understand u....i'm slowly getting round this prob i guess, so its not really a prob

worse still this year i haven been a good bf either...the harder i try to become a good bf i realise that i'm actually becoming more crap than "clap"...i have really failed Xuan. no point trying to tel me i'm good...in trying i have tried too hard and in loving i have been like an over-zealous hound dog...i have enough..beeing good is no longer enough...i'll be the best bf EVER and be a rational and logical one...not like the crackhead i use to be..all is not bleak..when i open my eyes tomorrow...i will wake up knowing that the love of the Lord changes me...He first loved me and He gave me love in the form of Xuan and i am largely greatful :) i cannot wait to sleep

i am actually trying to bring friends to know Christ..the one that i noe and the one that makes me smile 24-7 even when i'm getting sh*t from people....i want to go " this is HE , the one that is my source of laughing even in death for he will raise me! :) " i want to bring people to noe God especially those who are upset, for nobody can comfort u as much as God can.so i really hope the people will pray for my like i asked to and let me start bringing people to know him.. to know the true source of happyness...i am a great testimony to how much smiles God can bring to ur life....i dont smile for no reason and i am a very bad tempered and impatient guy...but nobody has ever seen me as such and i really give praise to God for mellowing me down so much :)

i just wan people to pray for those we are trying to reach out to...this is not a recruitment drive , but a reconciliation of the people and our father from heaven. i cant wait for the new year.... I NEED A JOB

29th dec 2007

today i had a part time job moving bowex from container to the werehouse for kiat's company SKATELINE. it was my first part time job and the first physically inclined job i took.....ok now i have blisters on all fingers and bruises on arms and chest! :P but i'm not complaining...its kindof a very interesting experience where you get to see how much close to nothing studies would apply to in a logistics job...wasted 12 years of my life trying to answer ln3 + lg5y / sin 60x and in the end, my first job exposure showed that such "advanced" maths was useless once outside the classroom.only multiplication and addition was used in any circumstance. people were very friendly there and its a really great workin environment when u can make new friends and really feel helpfull...not that i am not.managed to make a few new friends i guess and the lesson i learnt was that a 40m container is only 40m on the outside, 400 m in the inside :P


recently i keep having many different vibes as to what the battery wants.it shuttles from point to point but never rests on a single socket to establish itself....i dont want to regret from the fittings anymore and yet the different situations really make me feel like lays potato chips on the table..its a painfull process of ripening but i also know that even rotten fruits undergo such demands of the battery....i have learnt that its not how the fruits are selected but its how a seed primarily stays inside the fruit till whenever it deems fit...i wish the ghosts of christmas yesterday never comes to haunt me for yesterday never seems as good as a today of a tomorrow or at least thats how i'm tryin to get the window of oppertunity to establish...

this new year i have made a promise to God that i shall stop whatever detestable i am doing in his eyes and really foccuss on him...its past school and i have no more excuses like studies anymore..the pen will still be filled with ink but if the hand decides not to write anything, nothing malicious will escape from the pen...if the spirit is strong it shall conqure the body and bring forth its compulsions within the body itself before being a light to the world.I MUST STOP.

19-21 dec family chalet

decided to stay in spore this festive pre-season dun to low toothpaste volume in other parts of the world

so went for my father's side family gathering plus chalet and aloha pasir ris... the chalet was HUGE!!!! and i mean it... 4 seperate rooms with their own toilets seperated from the liviing room that is bigger than an average 5-room flat plus a kitchen the size of my bedroom..so big that i 4got to take any pictures for today...hahaha
made a huge decision and brought Xuan alonng to meet the family this gathering...i dun care what others will think " too young? " " too immature? "
haha my only ans is......well somebody has got to start the ball rolling...... hahaha
and actually nobody did ask those questions...most were glad i was attached...bet most were waiting for one of us to bring one back anyway hahahahaha

today is 21th dec
i jus biought bagua for Xuan's family...dang i dont have any ideas for any gifts so bagua will make the best bet! hahaha

waiting for christmas to come cos of all the log cake and turkey!!!! hahaha but i have atooth ache so mayb i'll have to eat les :( !
cant wat for the synaspsium no synpolium no synlapsium no i mean synposium
cant wait to pick up sth new :)

14th dec 2007

nothingness

today was one of the worst days i gotta endure...nobody home nobody out nothing to do nothing to watch nothing to play nothing nothing nothing :(
i am still red from being a lobster cos yesterday we went back to play bball in the hot PJCsun..madness but at least i met up with me friends again :)

today was really nothing....i changed my guitar strings and wiped it clean and rust free and gleaming! :) so happy :P

when are u coming back?

11th dec 2007 ; tuesday!

today went out with the basketball people for an outing...first we caught hitman! followed by dinner at marina suggested by our organiser Teo!
many were more interested in playing their psp anyways! hahaha





























this is the champion that is scared of prawns! hahah cos while we were eating a live prawn jumped up and scared the shits out of him! heheh he screamed so loud! hahahahaha
















later on we went to play lan at irc at paradis from 10-11pm and we made our way home...i''m beat i want to sleep ...good night!

10th dec 2007 ; monday

today was basically a day of total bordem! nothing to do, no shows to watched i even cleaned my room! amazing! hahaha my dad went fishing and he caught huge fishes! let me show u!

look at comparisn to my hand! ouch!

and more! all of them humongous...at least to me swakuu cos the only fishes i see are small and fit into my frying pan a-la-mr bean

and i'm proud of my desk! so neat now...looks messy cos of the display pictures and cards beneath the clear plastic sheets!

and the cabinet is clear of any files and notes....should have taken a before and after picture then u guys surely go WAAAAAA hahahaha

i'm bored

i've swept my room

i've packed my room

i've finished lunch

i've got no shows to watch

i'm bored

9th dec 2007

yesterday xuan left for China so kinda empty these few days :)

had crossroads today in church. some sort of combined lifegroups where we sing and worship as a cohort seperate from worshiping in service. played the bass today so fingers hurt naturally but i must say music brings joy to me! it was so fun playing music and the band was a great unit today!i enjoyed every minute of it being able to please God and foccuss at him.

later on we went for lunch with some of the peeps....was kinda like expecting a few people.
in the end only Gloria;Boon;Marie and I. had fish and co and marie like ordered a salad we all tot she was on a diet.....then she went " and this and this and yes this and ........" haha ok sorry i had to quote it cos i was super funny! :P

went home today

listening to don ross now kinda refereshing his plucking is cool something that makes u want to give up guitaring for the greater good of mankind..tommy emmanuel is another such bugger..jus go youtube and u'll understand

been doing alot of reflecting thses few days..thank God that God is so merciful and forgiving... yesterday talked with a friend bout her problems....feels really great to talk to people and help :) i feel so usefull!anyways dear miss whoever u are dont worry...God will make a way when there seems to be no way...the people of isreal in samuel and kings can testify to that :) God bles u!
anyways told her about my problems i faced and 1 of my sins i have not been able to forget...God i'm sorry...thanks for giving me a listening ear Father..
i love you Father...
i miss xuan

4th dec 2007 ; PROMhttp://good-times.webshots.com/photo/2660370540065058305ZBpYhJ?vhost=good-times

today we had our prom...haha i was too lazy to upload the photos using blogger cos its jus too slow...so used webshots instead...here's e url


http://good-times.webshots.com/album/561678803cElQtp?vhost=good-times

be sure to go see k:) haha it was a mad evening being unglam and trying to shout and utter rubbish along with the fantastic daniel ong.... let e photos do e talking :)

01122007 saturday

really used to waking up very early in the morning....so nowadays wake up at 6 with nothing to do....
today i tried something new...i went to the salon with my mom and decided , hey why not dye my hair...and i did it....its golden-er than i expected and i look like a friggin gangster...ohwells it looks good anyway :P
so there you have it i'm gold and brown...not a very good hair and skin combination..

been playing ninja gaiden for the most of the holidays...can say i have never played a tougher game..great graphics with greater difficulty level.and i'm only on normal mode....

recently saw the newspaper; Mr C got sued for speaking without a permit *again* sorry i have to voice my views somewhere but when will he ever learn? there are better outlets than standing in front of the istana with the letter... mayb he could have tried talking to his MP or something and i'm sure they'd gladly take his suggestions to the parliment or something..........( jus kidding )
i must admit tho that no country can keep everybody happpy and everybody would have his own greviences but i have seen nobody else try to take on the govt the same manner...for this....he got balls....sometimes i take pity with him as well. democracy is indeed the way for a modern society...but with our current govt improving the economy and everybody's pay rising pocketmoney increasing etc i don see why we should change a winning formula...its exactly what rafa gets for rotating his sparsely talented livp, a series of inconsistent and unstable form.
my point is, jus live with it...we dont have much of a choice anyway so dear mr c...think its time to speak to ur mp...

disclaimer : any relevance or reference to any character or person in life is purely coincedental and the above story is purely fictional to serve as a time consumer for the author..

21st nov : last day to D-day

i really cannot imagine that the Alevels are really going to be gone for good....somehow it means i will not be in a school already..does it mean i've grown up or does it mean i've grown out?
time really flied throughout this 2 years and i really think i came out of jc feeling more weird and diferent than when i first went in...but i'm still as irritation tho.
i believe the person i really gotta thank the most for my metamorphasis is God for he laced my life with many cheeries and marshmellows in the boggy jc life...

thank God for Xuan making a biggest impact in my life...unwittingly and unknowingly i became responsible and worrysome like a grandpa:P but i cant say too much here lest i dont trip over others' tougues of greeness and disgust....xuan i'll tel you myself:P

thank God for all the wonderfull friends i made in pj...the basket ball team, wont forget you guys in malaysia...had all the fun and games and boozing
thankGod for my class, making me feel accepted even when i am dejected. like a stalk in the wind i am blown off by their zest for academia( ps my class blog is pjc06s05.blogspot.com i got more dedications to my class there i think)
thank God for all my non class friends thanks for making my life a great laugh...Xuans friends the bunch of retarded people named the retards nvr made me feel ostracised one bit, the elephants and co also made me laugh alot
thank God for all my caring teachers,Mdm lim,mdm leong,mdm lin,mdm lim,mdm teo,ms lim,mr lim,ms toh and mrs leong. each one of them making significant impacts to my already impacted life...i noe my class will be appalled by what i say but i think like a stalker that is silent in the wind so is mrs leong's lessons..i think she has the biggest impact on me cos no matter what she says; no matter how ugly she puts it; no matter how naggy she is, you cant help but admit she is correct... lovely lady...naggy but wisdomfull.. cover ur mouth when you yawn k? :P

i also thank God for my club; Kaixuan....really long to be back running and jumping....all the fellowship and stuff..really lost it all at JC due to the madcap schedules of studying and chiong assignments...i'll be back soon i guess.:)

somehow i feel this 2 years i have aged 20 years...feel so old recently and i'd like nothing but to sit down and take a rest....this is so tiring but i think eventually its worth it...it was a great metamorphasis step in my life, may it embedd pieces of the present within in writhing all the cons away:)

18th nov 2007 ; sunday ; week to freedom

2 more weeks to liberation and freedom...yes i jus cannot wait for it. its been 2 long years of suffering and hard studying so much so that i think my always perfect eyesight is finally beaten and i cant see clearly now..

parents jus came back from taipei....dad bought me a PS3 game..Ninja Gaiden..will shoe the pictures again soon. really cant wait to go back to blogging and posting many nice pictures.accidentally deleted my old blog so kinda lost lotsa memories yeah.

recently got back in touch with ANGwj haven realli seen him for a long time.heck i haven seen any of my sec sch classmates for a long time so i've been begging for a gathering at our fav stall:)

yeah i noe its the last week left to freedom...will be back soon

ps i haven touched the ps3 game, talk bout discipline man.....
pps Ms leong reminded us to quote values
ppps i must drink more water and my failing eyesight mus be taken care of :)

4th nov ; 2007 A-LEVELS

ok its suppose to be mugging time and i shld not be blogging....but looking at my desolate blog i cant really stand but type something...

ok jus an update....so far...GP and Maths were ok...nothing tough and nothing scary yet. jus kinda worried for bio cos we really dunno whats coming out.anyways this time round...after my exams i really feel very motivated and energised after my exams which last 3 hrs..lol i mus be psyco but i reali feel very energised. ,ayb i'm jus motivated by the fact that its all ending soon:)

God has reali been my guide these few dark times and i'd reali love to thank Him alot...He said in hebrews He will never leave us nor forsake us.....and i think he really keeps his words..He reenergises me everyday and makes me so enthu to read my books....and He first loved me such that i can love others! :P Thank you !

ok i reali don feel comfortable blogging...must be rusty mayb its time to study. ok its jus 2 more days and everything will be over...ie MONDAY---> CHEMISTRY 0800 to 1000, then GEOGRAPHY --> 1400 to 1700 TUESDAY----> BIOLOGY 0800 to 1000 then MATHS --->1400 to 1700... sigh then for 1 whole week no exmas...why cant they just spread out....haha sorry i'm jus a grumbling citizen..dont arrest me i did not protest:)

20 something june 07



today i had a very eventfull day:) we were supposed to go with Xuan's mama to e beach



first we went to the beach to play sandcastles with her brother:) took some really nice photos hehe

arnt those sandcastles beautiful?hehe yup:) anyways the photos are so artistic right? yep they're by the artistic me hehe anyways we played till we're all burnt and no bit of fair skin left on our painfully burnt exteriors haha

later on we managed to catch the show " FANTASTIC 4 AND THE SILVER SURFER! " it was a rather nice show by my standards hehe ( i'm suspect to falling for cheap chick flick trillers ) anyways it was kinda touching, touching many topics like family, love and responsibility. no doubt the deeper meanings we quite incomprehendable but the show was rather nice admiring it from my point of view:) anyway xuan's little brother was snoozing away on my right.hehe so cute.

ps i went to watch with her whole family.

then i had to rush back home for an emergency which was too embarassing for me to type here but i can assure nobody was hurt in any stunt and please do not try it again! haha

i reali love this photo dont you think? hehe its ment to be a heart anyway hehe

oh wells gonna bath soon i guess xuan kinda reinfected her eye again. kinda hilarious but thinking of all the pain, better not laugh.hehe

i decided against a blogskin... simplicity is stil the best hehe ( rather i was too lazy to search for 1 hehe ) cya soon tmr open sch le