i feel very weird..... is it jus me being nice or am i really being undermimed and stepped over my head? i felt that i could have learnt my lesson from the past...from the et, from the e-ram...everything i tot i knew how to do;what to do now seems so distant. what does it mean to really be in control? why cant i just get a stance and prove it?...why must things happen before people react? why cant anybody listen to me and let me finish before you all blow your top and be the incredible sulk (not hulk) this makes me feel like i'm very incompetent like i'm very useless...its the feeling i hate the most...i duno why but this blog seems like a grief airing place DAM!

ok enough said...as the saying in my toilet goes " i have learnt that love, not time heals all wounds"and " i have learnt that life is tough but i am tougher!"

tmr i will be running in the AHM! ahaha mayb after taht i'll pay a visit to the singapore flyer since i have not been on it before. Bring Xuan along and go into the clouds:) din really sleep yest nite cos i was kinda alert and kept thinking that there was a turnout duno why...the leg forces makes ur brain a little addled :P

hopefiully i can blog more and more since i have more time to use the computers at home now! :) so far i've been great save some occasions and instances where i felt so emotional and unhappy but yeah i'll get over it..i just learnt that waiting and wondering is the worst thing i'd ever do in my whole life... i waited and wondered at a place where everybody were in pairs ahaha and i was only with rayson lee from WC. felt so miserable and yeah but i'll get over it...suddenly the sky got alot more darker..must be my dark side playing a prank! : P ok i'll go check the singapore flyer now :)